Last week I made a life altering decision. I don't want to be fat anymore. Yup, I used that ugly word, FAT! I'll post my rant her...

Starving but motivated

Last week I made a life altering decision. I don't want to be fat anymore. Yup, I used that ugly word, FAT! I'll post my rant here for you all to read. I wrote this in an email to dear Rachel. We are sticking to it, dang it! I have a goal...a lofty goal. I want to lose 100 pounds before January 2012 when the whole big Hunt/Allen/Sadler clan are planning a big trip to Disney World. That is a year and a half, and I WILL do it.

I WILL LOSE THIS WEIGHT!! I will look at pictures of myself in all of life's moments and smile instead of cringe, and I will stop taking tags off my facebook pictures! I will not buy anymore "one size bigger" jeans, and I will not make anymore excuses. I will not allow food to determine my happiness or my mood to determine my food. I will not buy into the lie that I like myself just as I am, because I don't. I am broken in my need to feel accepted while I have merely given up. I am a creative, loving, inspiring, hard working, giving, and amazing woman that is stuck in a body that tells others that I "can't." I can't take care of myself, I can't control myself, I can't take responsibility, and I can't muster up the energy to care. No more!

5 comments:

Can said...

I have no doubts that you can do it! Way to go :-)

Geidlbots said...

I found with the whole 5k thing that I found a goal I was SELF-motivated to do. It wasn't someone else's expectation of me or guilt that helped me conquer my goal. It was just ME. I wanted to do it for ME.

So, when Dave told me that he really wanted to lose some weight, I told him he was going to have to be self-motivated. I would do all I could to support him as he supported me. I would cook healthy meals and buy him healthy food for his breakfasts and lunches. But I told him, I am not dieting with you (mostly b/c I am pregs). I will not carry you and motivate you through this. You have to do it for YOU. He waited a couple of weeks, and then he told me, "I'm ready. I want to lose this weight."

I encourage you because I think you're where he was--do it for YOU. I am so proud of you, and I know you can do it. I am proud of Dave too. He has been doing so well--passing on extra food at meals, not caving for treats and desserts unreasonably. I have not made him do it, or nagged him about it, or made him feel guilty if he was sneaking peanut butter in the kitchen. :) I have lived my life and given him the freedom and support to pursue this goal. It has been 3 weeks? Maybe 4? He has lost 20 lbs. Of course, that is JUST LIKE A MAN. :)

Pediddlepie said...

Yeah it is, Jason got all pumped after I read him my little inspirational snippet and I don't even want to know what he'll lose and how quick! Thanks, Manda, your words were very encouraging!

Jennifer said...

You can do it, Amanda!

I hope you don't mind some advice.

I always stick to a workout routine by creating a "training" schedule. I plan out months at a time and put them in my calendar. If I see what I'm "supposed" to do that day, then it's harder for me to slack off.

I have been reading a lot about nutrition. One of the main suggestions they always have is to keep a food journal. If you are true about writing down everything you eat/drink daily, you will get a true grasp of what you are eating.

Mary S. said...

I agree with Jennifer that keeping a food journal is an effective key to losing weight. My group has a saying: "Write down every BLT."
BLT=Bite, Lick, Taste